Dedication!!!

لا أنت وجه للـــرجوله ولا انت قـــــــدها قبل نتفاهم أبـــي منك ترمي ميصرك...ترى لا أنت وجه للـــرجوله ولا انت قـــــــدها وعينك هذي

تنزلها لاوقفت ( انا ) قبـــــالك...ولا تقاطع في كلامي والزم الفاظك حدهالا تساهل في كلامي واحفظه وخله في بالك...أنا بنت ورثت

الــــعزه من أبوها لـــــ جدهامايهزها مجرد وجودك كبرياها مايكسره امثالك...والكرامه قبل تعرفك راضــــعته بمـــ(هـ)ـدهاغلطان ان كنت

تحسبني شيء تبعك ومن حلالك...أنا أكبر من طموحك وشف يدك لابغيت تمدهااللي مثلك شخص ( خاين ) يستحي منك ظلالك..

اللي مثلك مامشى درب الرجوله وماوصل لمجدهاكيف قلبك طاوعك ترخي لجل بنت حبالك؟!!...وترمي ميصرك لجلها ولجل تكـــــــسب ودها!!

عزتي عيت تنازل لجل اعاتبك على فعــــــالك...خلنا من "قصة خيانه" وقلي كرامتك وش عندها؟!وين الرجوله اللي تقول؟!كيف ترضى

يكون حالك؟!...وين عقلك طار له؟ يوم تلحق مـرها وشـــهدها لو سِألت عن المهانه قلت:تجسد من خــــــلالك...يوم ترمي بالرجوله

وتركـــــــض وتمسك يدها!!ان كنت تسأل عن شعوري أبشر بجاوب عن سؤالك...تدري! فرحت! لأني عرفت محبتك قبل يطول بعدهاأدري ا

ني في يومٍ قلت:أني عشقت حتى خيالك...وأنك قد كنت بحياتي شمسها"وظلها"وشوكها"ووردهالكن دموعي ( أنا ) على كل لحظاتي

بوصـــالك...يوم تخدعني بحبك وتنقل كلامك اللي تقوله عندهالكن مضى كل هالزمن وماني فيه أصغر عيــــالك...أنا أداعب هالنجوم واسأل

الشمس عني ياما لثمت بخدهاواللحين بشوفك وانت تقفي ساحب عز متهالك...ولمّ أعذارك معك يشرفني اني بكل بساطه أصدهامستحيل أقبل

عذر أنا أعلنت عن حياتي إعتزالك...والهدايـــا اللي وصلتني عفواً.....(أنا ) بــــــردهالحظه قبل تقف لاتنسى تنحني وتاخذ ميصركواحترف

طقوس المذله..اركض ألحقها شفها تمشي لوحده

hate or love??

This is a dedication to someone really crazy in my life & that I am honoured to know this friend:

Love.. Is like a diamond, It has so many faces,, love is to understand each other, not with a word,, but with a lo0k, a smile, a kiss.... Love Is to feel the pain.. to feel the happiness,, to breath the person that u love's Air.. Love Is to GIve and never wait to recive...Love has two languages.. The talk and the Body Language...

its the way you talk to the person you love.. the way you choose your words, and the way you pronounce the letter from ur lips.. the way you sound when u simply say I Love you, I need you..Just as much as the ear loves to hear.. each part of your body wants to feel it.. the way you hold the hand,, the way your fingers trimble in the body.. the way your lips feel.. the way you make love,, each part feels the heat, passion, and desire,, the sweet pain u give,, all that u should Give with love.. u can never talk.. u just simply feel it..

For the past few days....

Quote of the Day: A person has 3 choice in life. You can swim against the tide and get exhausted, or you can tread water and let the tide sweep you away, or you can swim with the tide, and let it take you where it wants to go.

Diane Frolov and Andrew Schneider, Northern Exposure, Northern Lights, 1993

Hmmmm....what should I say, what should I say! basically for the past few days crazy things have been happening @ work 'again'.....for starters...on Saturday, there was this customer who came in, and I know he likes me and would do anything just so he could grab my attention asked my boss if he could take us all (the whole team) for an outting wheather it were dinner or lunch its up to us...just so he could be with me!!!

Anyway, my boss just told him you have to wait, because ill have to make sure if she was single or taken...! so she told me and all...and I was like 'NO WAY!'...lol..and the whole team were like im nuts turning down a very good guy with no reason! oh well, there's alot to say about him...but I prefer keeping his stories short just cause he's not that worth of MY attention...tehee!!

On sunday the dude which the bank hires to take pictures work related was in today, man he's a story himself.....when he 1st time saw me...@ the event he just wouldnt stop taking my pics...made me feel like a celebirty LOL! and the dude just kept on praising & admiring and saying its impossible me being single bla bla bla & if I were young enough I would have married you long time ago......DUDE!!!! yeeesh....

Anyway, he came in on Sunday and started taking more & more pics of me for the bank i guess....I mean dont get me wrong I like taking pics & im dont consider myself as miss world or anything but ....................... ( i think i should keep the rest to myself) for now that is! oh and Mr. Admirer came in yesterday again too talking to my boss about me and wanting me to re-consider and think about it...as if its not enough I got other 2 people on my back reagrding marriage proposals that I find it strange why men dont understand the word 'No'...its like it doesnt even exist in thier dictionary that you have to shove it so hard in them till they get the point!

oh, and dont you just hate it waking up early in the morning feeling SO COLD that you just wanna go back and cover up under the sheets and once you're ready and changed and all and go out to start the car THE CAR BATTERY IS ALREADY DEAD!!!!!!!!! thats what happened to me today....god I hate when that happens...making me waste a beautiful & enjoyable sleep in the cold cold mornings.....!

Dramatic Stories

Quote of the day: The greatest pleasure in life is doing what people say you cannot do.
Walter Bagehot (1826 - 1877)

Scenario :
She's waiting for her one and only to come back home after along day, and he ends up coming home late at night and thats not all what he brings with him!!!

Chapter 1:
Heard you in some club, trying get new love, you might as well know I wanted to scream and shout but I went home Just picked up the phone & Cleared your bank account. It's gonna be such a shame what I'm gonna do to you. Revenge is a must when my heart you crushed, you know I'm gonna burn your house to dust 'cause a girl really gets so serious when you really make a girl so furious, again i say, It's such a shame what I'm gonna do to you!!

This is the last time that I'm gonna let you get away with all these games that you're playing with me 'cause I kept seeing the signs but I ignored them. I once was blind but now I see 'cause when you came home last night you just wasn't smellin' right and that look in your eyes was telling what was going on...

What the hell is that smell? Could it be someone else? Oh so you try-na play me I'm getting so tired of you always coming in late with the signs of mellow on your face, You know what, forget it! Revenge as I said is a MUST!!! Ok I'm gonna break it down in your native language in pig latin so you can understand it..like I may oinke, epre oye Must say goodbye Echke ooye boybey Did you understand that?I thought so! Here we go! I may oinke, epre oye Must say goodbye Echke ooye boy bey Yeah!

Random Thoughts!

Quote of the day: Your heart understands what your head cannot yet conceive; trust your heart.

Hmmm...now what would you think about that??? My personal opinion, it’s FULL of BULLSHIT! I say always think with your head, otherwise.. why did god give you brains in the 1st place??! Ok so we all tend to have feelings from time to time..but what happens in the end when everything goes wrong case you did a teeny weenie mistake by thinking with your so-called heart....you get disappointed....believe me been there DONE THAT!!!

I think it would be a smart move thinking with our head...be smart enough to know your right from your wrongs, always keep your mind and eyes opened for any possibilities....never be negative....there are millions of reason to come around in the end right?

I will admit however that love is a beautiful thing, if and ONLY if, handled with care. From my past experiences I learned ALOT, and trust me ALOT I say! so now when it comes to me and love, I make perfectly sure that I take good care of it with everything I got as if it were my own baby...in the end, what do we have besides love eh!?

Bitter.........sweet!!

Quote of the day: Our lives are not determined by what happens to us but by how we react to what happens, not by what life brings to us, but by the attitude we bring to life. A positive attitude causes a chain reaction of positive thoughts, events, and outcomes. It is a catalyst, a spark that creates extraordinary results

Have you ever felt hate in your life that you would do just about anything to make it disappear!? Have you ever thought for why things happen when they do, and that you have no self control about it?? Did you ever think of ways to avoid all the troubles and negativity in your life and just focus on only the good things in life?

They say SMILE is a remedy of all the dilemma & troubles of a person...but do you believe in it?? What if you wanted to confess over something you have done so badly to someone you are afraid that they would be extreamly dissapointed in you and feel let down by you...can you bare it? can you handle all the pressure?? can you take the weight?? will you be able to take it???

All your life you are told the things you cannot do. All your life they will say you're not good enough or strong enough or talented enough; they will say you're the wrong height or the wrong weight or the wrong type to do this or achieve that. THEY WILL TELL YOU NO, a thousand times no, until all the no's become meaningless. All your life they will tell you no, quite firmly and very quickly & finally you get a grip of yourself that YOU WILL TELL THEM YES.

I know i might not make sense now, maybe I never will make sense, but in the end....this is only for me to know!!

I am Free!

Quote of The Day: There are three words I like to repeat to myself: glass half full. Just to remind myself to be grateful for everything I have.

What goes through your mind? as you sit there looking at me ...well I can tell from your looks , that you think I’m so oppressed, but I don’t need for you to liberate me... My head is not bare, and you can’t see my covered hair...so you sit there and you stare and you judge me with your glare..,you’re sure I’m in despair but are you not aware under this scarf that I wear I have feelings, and I do care....!!

So don’t you see? That I’m truly free and this piece of scarf on me I wear so proudly to preserve my dignity... My modesty, my integrity, so don’t judge me...open your eyes and see... “Why can’t you just accept me?”, “Why can’t I just be me?” Time and time again you speak of democracy, Yet you rob me of my liberty, all I want is equality...why can’t you just let me be free?

For you I write this, my frined, I will always be strong, from you I’ve learnt so much, I forgive those who laugh at me, I walk with no fear through the insults I hear, my wish is so sincere that they’d understand me but before I walk away...this time I turn and say:

But don’t you see? That I’m truly free, this piece of scarf on me I wear so proudly to preserve my dignity, my modesty, my integrity, so let me be...She says with a smile I’m the one who’s free