Mixed emotions...

I was happy but then I became sad, but then I started laughing..but then ended up crying...however with all the pain I lived and I learnt...that's because my wound will hurt no one but me..and ppl that cry around me will not do me any good ... I learnt that the most beautiful smile is the smile that I have which covers all the wound and pain..and the most truly and precious tear is the one the falls down in silent without anyone seeing ..I learnt to feel happiness with the people around me, and be sad alone..and the only remedy to that is my acceptance to my self..when we feel pain we knock all the doors of forgetness... Some ppl cry to forget, some laugh to forget, some sleep to forget, some are quiet to forget, and some cheat to forget...but then there are others that do all that but can never forget...I guess what I'm trying to say is...everyone in ur life is going to hurt you...sooner or later...but u have to decide...what's more important? "Pain or The Person"?

Word of Advice...

Never be sad if someone doesn't recognize your worth, your value,  or your care. It's their loss, not yours. Because people who don't appreciate your worth don't deserve to know you..-just think about it-..I don't need to change for anyone. I want people accept me for who I am..

At some point you realize that you have done too much for someone, that the only next possible step is to stop. Leave them alone and just walk away...It's not like you are giving up and shouldnt try. Its just that you need to draw the line of determination from desperation. What is truly yours would eventually yours and what is not no matter how hard you try, will never ber....-just think about it-...

I have 5 fingers for certain reasons..My "little finger" is to make promises to my best friends, my "ring finger" is for someone speial when the time is right, my "middle finger" is for those who are just jealous and dont want to see me succeed! My "index finger" is to silence those who speak ill of me..And my "thumb" is to show the rest of the world that i'll be fine no matter how hard life is...  

'nuff said...

Someone once said a very random thing about women, and I thought it would be funny to share since it is also true! He said and I quote "I know I'm not going to understand women. I'll never understand how you can take boiling hot wax, pour it onto your upper thigh, rip the hair out by the root, and still be afraid of a spider."

Well, we -women- are a very funny creature however, we are really transparent if you really look what we have from the inside...you would really find it easy to understand us if you only chose to listen...but for some reason the sentence of "Men are from Mars & Women are from Venus" is stuck in your head like a bubble gum stuck in your hair!!

I as a woman promise and gurantee that if you really wanna understand a woman, just LISTEN to what she has to say and please DON'T to make her repeat herself twice..

Peace out for now....
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*A manuel of understanding women!!

The Best Gift From Allah!

Motherhood. I wonder what would it be like being one?? I mean dont get me wrong, Im sure its a handful but what I would like to say to all mothers around the world & who have played the role of a "mother" & how does the symbol of mothering is refelected to our personal lives and relationship.

Ok! what Im trying to say to all mothers is that you are the solid bridge when we need to cross over. You are strong, steady & capable to hold on long enough for us to cross over and reach safely to a safe and good environment. You would do your very best to make us feel safe. Your arms are so soft and made of tender that we can lay on your arms and sleep soundly around them!

You will always be loyal and devoted to your children. Thats a rare gift from god given to only to Mothers. You would always find forgiveness in your heart and no matter what you would always shower us with love after being mad at us for something we did.

And last but not least, the real secret behind motherhood love is the thing that MONEY can NEVER buy!

This is a warning...

So whats with you, being all big headed..? To the extent it became larger than your size...Just a minute, lets go back in time...and let me remind you how we met...you were lost, and the tears wont leave your eyes..you were devestated, broken in to pieces, on the down low, and in all that I still took you in...and since your pride is even to good for your heart, I curse my heart that fell for you...Laugh now while you can, but TOMORROW...you WILL regret the moment I EX you out of my life....

In the name of Understanding...

Quote of the day: If you were thinking of someone while reading this, you;re definately inlove ;)..

So based on experience and people I hung out with..He's not perfect, you aren't either! And the 2 of you will never be perfect...But if he can make you laugh at least once, causes you to think twice and if he admits to being human & making mistakes hold on to him & give him the most that you can.

HE isn't going to quote poetry, he's not thinking about you every moment, however give you a part of him that HE KNOWS you could break..so DON'T hurt him..don't change him -heck the only time you can change in a man are HIS DIAPERS-LOL...Ahm...moving on..and don't expect for more than he can give.

Don't analyze. Smile when he makes you happy & yell when he makes you mad & most of all, miss him when he is not around..Love hard when there is love to be had. Because perfect guys DON'T exist, but there's always ONE guy that is perfect for you..

& I have that guy on my mind right now....

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Alright Diary, so marriage is all about give or take....Its better that you give her now before she takes it all away from you....Confusing? yes, can be abit...but if you sit down for a moment, just for a moment and clear your head, you'd understand exactly what im trying to say...

Theres more i'd like to say and elaborate, but I dont think now would be the right time...I guess we'll just to have wait and see what comes out of it...

Rock & Roll the World....

Yes mistakes were made between us 2..but im glad we are working it out...you are afterall my lover, friend, homey..I cant lie....you are the apple of my eye...days pass by...and all I can think of is you...I wish things were easier for you...I wish life was more flexible for you...I love and miss our P.T's...I just want you to know that I am with you all the way...and may Allah guide us through the right path where we meet and conquer the world just you and me...I love you, and this time Im not leaving without you...

Ya 5atim Sulaiman...Rihana said it best when she said "I came to win, to fight, to conquer, to thrive...I came to survive, to prosper, to rise & to fly..." But I came to do all this with you only....tick tock..

Broken Pieces

@ this moment, I feel so vulnerable and unhappy with the things that going on..I do not know nor understand why all this!? what for?! and whats the outcome that you are looking for in it? Are you actually enjoying it...? too many questions with no direct answer @ all...-as always-...

Today is the 1st day of Eid Al Fitr, and all I did was stay home then went to my grandfathers house for 2 hours and back home again...I did not enjoy it @ all...I just feel so out of track and lost...mistreated, misunderstood, taken for granted...

its enough..I've done all that i can!!!